What if there is no “getting there?"

I often catch myself saying “Once I have this thing or accomplish that, than I will feel happy, content, peace - or whatever I am tying to this external thing.” 

What I have found is the bar or thing I am tying my happiness to, continues to move. I never seem to “get there.”

I noticed I was doing this with wanting to spend some time living in Europe. During this past year I find myself saying “Once we are in Europe, it will be different. Once I am there then…”

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I would feel more free, putting less pressure on myself in my business. I would feel more connected to my husband, time to slow down and really soak up every moment. Prioritize things that feel really good. ⁣

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Before Europe it was leaving the 9-5, or making a certain amount in my business, or once we got engaged, or married...

So I have had to really ask myself, What if there is no “getting there?”

This has been a powerful realization /question, especially during quarantine.

How can I create these things/feelings right now? ⁣

What if I don’t have to wait to feel or be the woman I desire, until I get these things? 

What is the deeper thing here I am not wanting to look at or feel? 

This continues to be a journey, but it has brought a lot of freedom. I don’t have to put so much pressure on these external things in the future - I can put the  focus back on what is in my control today.