Skin

I’ve struggled with my skin for most of my life.. 

I have acne prone skin and I remember the doctor first put me on birth control in my teens to help. I never questioned it, and it did help. I would get a pimple here and there, but overall pretty clear. 

Flash forward to my mid 20’s. I decided to get off my birth control to give my body a break. I didn’t really think much about my skin.. Was I in for a shock!

My skin went crazy!!!!

I bought every skin care product. I tried changing my diet, changing my makeup, different facials, Chinese medicine, natural supplements, different cleanses - EVERYTHING and anything possible, I did it.

I remember I didn’t want to go to social events, I was constantly comparing my skin with other women, I felt so self conscious, discouraged, and embarrassed.

I finally went to a doctor hoping they could give me some support and they told me the only thing that would help is putting me on blood pressure medicine - I was like what!? How could this be the solution?!

Being I was at a breaking point and willing to try anything - I did it. I took it for a few days and the side effects were so intense I had to stop.

This really brought me to my knees..  

I realized the last thing I had not wanted to look at was accepting my skin for what it was. Loving it with it’s imperfections, loving myself no matter what my skin looked like. 

Day after day as I would look in the mirror and speak loving words to my skin. I felt things shifting inside of me. The obsessing, negative self talk started getting less.. And my skin started to not feel like the center of my whole world. 

I also found @themodernu which really added another layer of healing and support to my skin. She specializes in acne prone skin, which made me exhale knowing I wasn’t alone.

The older I’ve gotten I’ve learned to embrace, love and appreciate my skin. My scars, my sun marks, freckles, my pores and breakouts. It continues to be a journey and some days, weeks, are better than others, but I felt called to share more about my skin journey, in hopes it may resonate with others <3